Have you ever wonder if every decisions have you made are right and will be okay? I know most of us have bad memories in the past, and you want to throw all the memories even your good memories. One day, you try to remember or to recall back the memories, that time you realized, most of them have been deleted. You are  clueless and do not know how to start and find the lost memories. Now you know that even though it was a bad memories you still need to keep it as your memories. I know it's hurt but it's much hurt when you don't remember them. Sometimes I feel that I am paranoid, scared of something that doesn't matter, or maybe I just too sensitive. You also have a trust issue. You just can't simply believe or trust people around you even your own family. Now you're grown up daughter or son of your family, when things come wrong and problems keep bothering your life, you started to blame people around you, generation you have born to and blaming your own self, the worst thing you started to question the reason why you have to come and live in this world. You try so hard to believe that God have His own reasons about every single thing he does. You are no longer an innocent kid, just like you used to. You started to create an empty and hollow big jar in your heart. You kept all the bad and the good memories. No, I know, it's all the bad one. Your jar start to crack and broken. All the bad memories you have just break the wall of the jar. You need help. You tell your true feelings to them, then it just useless. They are all fake, they just want to make you feel better, but that was a lie. They pretend to listen to you and understand your feelings. It just a lie. You stand up and walk to your bed, hoping that after you sleep, you will wake up like nothing happen. Again, it's deceiving. You know, all that bad feelings will not just go away from your life easily. Now you have two names. You lived in the world of the other of you.  You thought that, things will getting better and better.